Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Visiting the old ladies

Gil & I went to Nebraska for 4 days. There's got to be a reason to go to Nebraska. It's not the scenery or the nightlife. It can only be relatives.
Gil has an aunt, uncle and cousins in Lincoln. They decided it was time for the 1st Annual T____ Family Reunion.
So, we attended. It was short and sweet, no drama, decent food. A nice time was had by all.
While there, we visited my mom and my Aunt Catherine, who live in Omaha. Aunt C. is now 90 years old. She has always been a brilliant woman. Cheap, but brilliant.
She is in an assisted living facility. She is a hoarder. And she was removed from her home for her own good.
But things have gone downhill. She is losing her memory. It's very hard to witness someone you knew as sharp become fuzzy around the edges.
While walking to her room, I naturally looked in the open doors of some apartments as we passed by. And I saw people, mostly women, who looked like they're just waiting to die.
This can shake you to your core.
You wonder, why stress out over life, when this is the end result?
I have some pondering to do......

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

It Ain't Going So Well Lately

I'm overwhelmed.
Stressed, unhappy.
I am worried over things I cannot control.
The economy is in the crapper, which I can't do anything about, and yet I worry myself silly over it.
Crime, especially violent or senseless crime, is making me frantic.
I can't seem to sell any advertising. I'm down to 30% of what I was selling 3 years ago. That may seem like it's to be understood, considering all the closed businesses in this town, but that does nothing to make me feel any better.
My kids. My poor kids. What a terrible time for them to be young adults, trying to find their way in this world. They are having problems, human every day problems, and my heart aches for them.
I just opened the front door and my kitty scooted out. He's an indoor cat, why would he do that?
I've newly dedicated myself to God. I need to walk the walk now, and hand all this over and pray. Pray for His peace and comfort.